Where Can I Go With ‘What If’

Some days I sit and wonder ‘what if…?’ What if I had said yes to myself sooner? What if I had said yes to a different relationship or what if I had said no to any relationship at all and stayed single as a young adult? Where would I be in life if I had learned how to know and love me? What if I had learned that a relationship or romantic commitment wasn’t the necessary path in life? What if I had know I had the option to build the life of my dreams, getting to know myself before committing to anyone or anything else? What if i didn’t take that ‘next step’ and get married? What if I had spent a year completely alone after my divorce? What if I had moved back to Texas to give a shot at the relationship I left there? What if the reality was better than the fantasy? What if I never had children, or had more than one? What if I learned the importance of saying ‘no’ sooner in life? What if I also learned that it’s okay to have my own opinions and voice? What if I never feared making mistakes? What if I never worried what my entire family would think of my decisions? What if i gave myself permission to follow my dreams? Where would life take me?

Each moment of pondering leads me to more excitement in my life. I know now that the ‘what ifs’ don’t have to be an imagination, but can be a path I choose today. I give myself permission to follow my dreams and take risks in life. I am no longer fearful of what life has in store. I look forward to opportunities to challenge myself in life. I have conquered my fear of heights this year. I am looking forward to conquering so much more.

Embrace every opportunity. Step into fear instead of being stopped by it. Believe and have faith that everything that comes at you in life is an opportunity to grow, to stretch your limits, and find a new ways to conquer life.

Yes, “what if” is a way of looking back, but it is also a way of looking at life with hope for the future.

Do what you can, with what you have, where you are. ~Theodore Roosevelt